Auf Ur’sa Ur’TlaRapi stood before the assembled leaders.
She looked sad and haggard.
"I have had many a long and sleepless night. I tried as many have to do good, to do right. But even my choices to spare the Dead Captain Castiel cost many lives.
Is belief worth it? Is morality worth it? So much pain I have felt because I could not live up to my great morals. And what has it gained me?"
All were moved to see the ancient wisewoman’s crisis of faith in herself.
"We all do things we regret. My greatest regret is that I did not think to do as the Kul Gul Rapi had done. I did not give freely of water and food when I could to save the lives of many. But my pride was even worse, to think so little of the Bruskti to never even think they could do such great kindness. How many bruskti did I drive away with light and healing in my youth who could have helped our great mission…
What is your greatest mistake?"
Next in the circle around the tree sat Uhryu Bill, called Bill of the Green Pants for his bright green lower fur. He spoke with great sadness, “I can’t even begin to enumerate how many times I failed.
I have failed many times, from my personal failings as a father to my failings as an Uhryu. We started out so well, with redfurs and others joining us as time passed. We took on watching other tribes, aiding who we can and trying to protect those that need it. For it seem like our responsibility, that those who are further along our path.
What is my greatest mistake? I would have to say, at least on a personal level, the failure to my son. His strength and intelligence is a boon to all he would help, and has an ability to make hard decisions quickly. What could he have done for us if I have been able to look past my prejudice and raised him to be a good gog. What could he have built?
As an Uhryu, it is my failures with our Leader, Rapi’og. His headstrong will was only overcome at times by force, of which very few could withstand. The pain this has cause, the death that my mistakes have lead to much death, including many of our tribe but many more of the other tribes. Here in Karov, it is most obvious. The good works that we did lead many tribes to us, and lived in our land. Now they go hungry as some many were living among us, and most recently the caves and other places we planned to stay in have been destroyed. We now are homeless, refugees in others land, just as others came to us, now we are guest of others.”
Auf Ur’sa nodded sympathetically, she also said, “There is no shame in being the guests of others. Only through mutual aid do species thrive. Through living in the lands of others you learn what holds meaning for them, and in so doing you gain more understanding of the challenges this world presents. But it also presents opportunities to come together and create something new.
Next in the circle sat Mama Rapigog, the matriarch of the Kul Gul Rapi Family. She was known for the great charity of her tribe, how many they had saved through their gifts of water. Even now areas once arid desert were abnormally green from the extra irrigation. Hundreds of thousands of families were still together thanks to that one policy of their tribe.
Mama Rapi’gog pursed her lips. Many of the great wrongs the family committed were long in the past. She had tried to guide the family to her vision, one that honored both the Thunder Gods of her youth and her father’s dream for how things should be and the Bruskti traditions. “I don’t consider this a wrong but some consider dis a great wrong, other families feel anger towards us for it, but I ordered da family to allow in da earthers into da family. It a big violation of family traditions.” she said almost wearing the statement as a badge of honor. She quickly realized that wasn’t nearly her greatest crime.
“Way back over a year ago we raided da earthers building a lake in Brez. They were charging for da Tla, and dis is wrong but we didn’t seek to right dat we just wanted their coveted steel.” She shook her head, looking back it seemed so petty, “Da true crime though, dat was when we were leaving Brez we raided an orphanage. Da Bruskti its hard for us to have babies. They born needing da fear da parents have to carry them on raids, so instead da Bruskti we steal other children, its the only way we can survive.”
Auf Ur’sa lowered her head for a few moments holding back her prodigious anger. Then she thought, how can I rethink this matter. I did not think as the Bruskti did when we needed water. Now they need, and before Auf Ur’sa called for their death, another thought nudged its way in. Maybe we did grow more from our failures than we do from our successes, she thought.
“The choices for unwanted children in these lands are enough for the Earthers to label us Goblins. What choices do orphans and the abandoned children have? Join gangs and raid and loot to keep food in their mouths? Be flesh and currency for the Slavers among our kind and the Earthers? Or join the army of the Der’al Collective or the United Tribes of Refuge. In either case, dying for politics they may not even understand,” said Auf Ur’sa, “Let an agreement be forged that when those tribes here find children who are unwanted, they be given the help to join the Bruskti of the Kul Gul Rapi. They will learn the art of seaships, of fishing, and protected by the Kul Gul Rapi. And all the child must agree in exchange is that they swear a promise to always provide water to those in need, to keep this tradition of the Kul Gul Rapi alive.”